post hiatus....

well I've lay dormant long enough...I cannot say that I've achieved clarity but I can say I am feeling a new inward motivation to do something more than just be ordinary. I struggle daily with an inability to understand why we live like we do? I also feel frustrated when attempting to express a coeherent and intelligible existence that would be a reality and not merely words on paper. I mean a change in lifestyle that people could cope with and the practical ways that each one of us would have to undertake personally and as a collective. on and on ....lets learn together

We just had to leave all that behind....

The AK summer is teasing taunting and convincing me more each day that it will be hard to leave this place. I find my newest plans shakin out like so...leave AK for the South of France sometime between July or August, Return to NY for a wedding in September, then return to AK for the New Year and the beginning of my next venture....Pro SKIER!!! No more games. Big Mountains, big thrills, no money, no worries...in short Live the Life you Seek.

My kin arrives here in the north on the morrow. Im pretty psyched we are gonna party down like its 1999.

Glory to the Rosanero they finished in 6th place within the Serie A Table.

Picture update soon....

~PullTab

Fearless...

It is the eve of my love's departure and once again I find myself gripped with the paradoxical feelings of Joy and Despair....
Joy because we have met and we have spent time together....Despair because now we must part

C'est la vie

~PullTab

...no this cant happen to me...

it is that way. I am in a state of such anticipation I think it is almost comical. I find myself with the realization that some deep breathing and observation of my heartbeat is the only meditation. Sleep is now fleeting and I stare outside the window and watch the snow fall. As it settles I await the arrival and subsequent end of summer. I need time to march on. Why is it that now that i have a desire for a few months to gloss over each day has seemed longer than the one before? mai mai mai i dont know if i can stand it



Its my yearly anniversary of evaluation and I actually feel good this year. Hopeful, interest in the future. Pleased with doing what i want for the reasons that i want to. even if i do complain once in awhile...my reality is always quite pleasant. All i can do is find someway to try and pass the next day as quickly as i can.

~PullTab

Candy Says

....I dig the quiet places ... All is in order and Juliet is set to arrive in the next 72 hours. Anxious would be a vast understatement. For better or worse I can think of nothing else for the time being. Trying to embrace the now and keep myself from being disappointed by anticipating the outcome of upcoming situations. When you know someone better than anyone and yet you dont know them...this is my conundrum.

Oh yeah I started a band with an Irishman....

The Rosanero hold the middle of the Serie A table. A disappointing derby result against Catania 4-0.

~PullTab