it's all you

guess who?? take responsibility time. Ive procrastinated packing, writing electronically/traditionally, keeping in contact with different friends. The reasons or excuses rather, take your pick busy preparing to move, regular household chaos, a slumping creative flow... who knows who cares.

I sat outside this evening around 10:30ish. I wrote to myself as I often need to. Setting goals down on paper so I don't ignore or deny that they exist. even scratched out a bit of poetry. Do other people set themselves against a standard whatever it may be, or who they are, that is above themselves? Is it o.k....not ok, but is it possible to really embrace where you are and what you have? Yes I am confident that overall I'm a good person, but I don't know if I aspire to be myself...if that makes sense. To know I would have to be outside myself I suppose

Rest assured I feel myself striving, often times struggling to be the person I truly desire to be. It should be as simple as wanting to be it and being it, right? I dont feel that way sometimes, but you tell me.

~PullTab