what the hell happened?!?!

Laziness...Ive been in a tent for the last month so that is a valid excuse for part of the time anyway....In truth I have been hitting my six month wall. The period whenever I become confused, scared, or otherwise unsure of what lies ahead. On a positive note I will be receiving my first guest tomorrow. My mother is actually venturing to the great north. Even better she will have a brief introduction to cordova. A town that by the day captures and pulls me closer to permanent residency. Although Ive been warned that I must first experience a full winter here, no arguments on that point. New opportunities continue to arise and greet my undeserved soul. I still wonder sometimes, who is the real me? Who are you?? blast...there i go again. existentialism is boredom and lack of inspiration. One fiery end note to the days events...Russia has invaded Georgia. No not the state although the confusion would at least create more exposure in the news. Military bombing ceased sometime this morning although there have been unconfirmed reports of oil spilling into the Black sea, as a result of russian air strikes on the port pipelines carrying Caspian Sea oil. Well no promises but I will try not to neglect this window to my soul!!