relax

Today was used to lay low and get some things done that I've been putting off. I penned a few letters and cleaned my room, which serves as my only true personal space for the time being. I have gotten to know more of the local folks here in dillingham. I volunteered at a youth dance on Thursday evening, that was a trip. Watching middle schoolers run around being too cool for their own good. I tried to realize what little clique would I have been part of had I been a peer of theirs. It was enjoyable regardless of their punky ways. Yesterday we watched Dogsled Racing and did some sledding with the children around town. That's all I've got...


Big match for Palermo tomorrow against Inter!!

~PullTab

busy beaver

I've been busy around Dillingham attending Beaver Round Up events... a full post before tomorrow is out....

~PullTab

I do mind, the Dude minds.

I've decided to bring all guns to bear, so to speak, on my financial woes. The head in the sand approach has left me buried. It's not that anyone else is too blame, more just an improper self righteousness. Nothing new right? Anyway all I can do is continue on the proper path of living within one's own means and realizing what things in life are actually a necessity. That and beg, borrow, or steal anything else that I Have to Have ;-). Besides those bastids will get their money. I just wish their was a little more push back power against the one's who are holding the bills. But there I go trying to push the blame. To quote Beck "...nobody's fault, nobody's fault, but my own."

I received some encouraging words from old and new friends through the good ole US mail yesterday. Despite my entering into this digital medium I must say that nothing will replace the joy of a letter with your name on it, or pen and paper correspondence with people you care about.

March 12, 1943 - Aaron Copland's "Fanfare for the Common Man" was performed for the first time, by the Cincinnati Symphony Orchestra with Eugene Goossens conducting. (New York Times, On This Day)....My friend requested this as his theme music when his band Vasillias Kovoros made it's debut, an event which has yet to occur.

~PullTab

or does it

I think I've decided what's been getting to me lately. It's that I'm alone. Not in the physical sense, but emotionally I'm isolated. I know this is something that we all must face I've just never gotten good at it. In fact these feelings are what get me into trouble. I let myself get so excited and uplifted when I meet someone even remotely interesting.

The chance for romance
you've been here before
what shall be your stance?

Don't dive right in,
the water's clear,
and sure you can swim

Look what's submerged,
there are rocks below
and they aim to purge

Step back from the cliff
take a look around
dont keep asking, What if?

Maybe you should be the lake
and someone can check you out
see if you're the chance that they should take

apologies for the punctuation and somewhat cheap rhyme scheme... but i wrote it as I typed. Well that settles it I suppose...

~untitled~

On the run,
at it again.
Where will you go?
What of your friends?

You're new to all,
what a guy?
But still not yourself,
wonder why?

A clean sheet
a fresh start.
Keep it neat,
ignore your heart.

Life's old again
time to run.
Goodbye old new life,
sure was fun.

~PullTab

well fed and well read...

I'm experiencing the looming feeling of I don't know what. It's hard to say I'm unhappy, it's more that I'm unsure of so many things. I don't know what or whose approval I'm waiting for but it must be something. I've gotten to a point where I am looking backwards and am not always pleased with the way I dealt with responsibilities and other things "adult" in this life. The approaching birthday is gripping me I suppose. I just want to be able to achieve something that I can be personally proud of. I don't know what direction to take this post. At this point I'll let it be. Ah well I've still got every desire to push breath from these lungs...that will have to do for now.

March 10th, 1922 - Mahatma Gandhi is arrested in India, tried for sedition, and sentenced to six years in prison, although he is released after two years in February 1924 after an operation for appendicitis. (wikipedia)

~PullTab

skinny skis

So the x-country misadventure was a success! It had been well over a decade since I delved into the flatland ski scene. I fell on my ass twice at the start, but after that I just slinked awkwardly across the ice pack. At least there is never anyone around to see you looking like a fool, besides the wildlife. Certainly a great workout. After the first hour I actually got into a gliding rhythm and I kind of enjoyed it. What I realized...How much I need to get a pair of downhill skis out here!! We will be in Anchorage before to long so I am waiting until then before I start acquiring more possessions. You can only fit so much on those small planes.

A side note, I forgot to mention some new friends I met on my Friday night outing. A local councilman and his cousin. Cool folks who were kind enough to entertain me after the Sea Inn was done for the night, the bar closes here at 2 a.m. The cousin, a girl my age, owns this awesome little house in the classic Alaskan lodge style. They hopefully will be contacts I can keep should I ever return to Dillingham.

...on and on it goes.

~PullTab