you tell me

The sun has set
darkness creeps
consuming swallowing
engulfing all

The sun also rises
light pours
pushing shining
illuminating

The path was lost
but hope was not
Perseverance
Persevered

I wrote that somewhere over Minnesota on the flight to Anchorage and rediscovered it today thought I'd pass it along. I don't really have anything else to ponder or spout about

A couple starts to poems that haven't materialized or been looked at since their initial scrawling...

Lined up in pews
with nothin to lose
Their scant an' skinny souls
are laid to waste

and this

A king without a crown
on a hill looking down
small in stature
big of heart

The loves of his people
all he desires
politics and leeches
around his keep build a fire

A disconnect
a distant whim
his people wander
ponder, how to reach him?

and finally

Hangin from the ceiling
swingin from the shades
duckin under tables
runnin in a haze

~PullTab

greedy

Tonight I write for myself but stay tuned I'll be back tomorrow....

Palermo suffered defeat once again, Parma wins 2-1

~PullTab

into the hole

I got to experience something new today, well two new things actually. My first chance to check out a snow cave. Impressive in size actually, it had two rooms and was a split level. Even more surprising...I met a banker I actually like, hmmph who knew some of them actually dislike money!! The gent was the architect and primary builder of the cave. He was kind enough to have us over for dinner and share some of his home brewed beer. While this flies in the face of my previous temperance pledge, I think nothing should be absolute especially when offered as a gift. Don't judge me ;-). Besides I worked out before I went so as long as goals are being achieved I'm happy. There is still a little tension left over from yesterday, but change is within site so I'll keep on keepin on.

Palermo has a match against Parma tomorrow about 10:30 my time. Parma is only a few points from relegation so they are expected to play with ferocity, determination, and desperation. A dangerous combination in the Glorious Game.

~PullTab

well you had to go and say it

So I finally got a bit of a reality check and had a bit of a...I can't say tough day, how about trying. I just found myself going in circles and second guessing my actions, looking over my shoulder and the like. I've been through worse and some things are better left to be dealt with by oneself ;-). As always it's better to accept and realize other people's faults as your own. Think of how their perspective has merit and what can you do to help resolve the situation large or small.... an unintended transition

Though by no means do I want these writings to become political or an opinion blog I may use this space to voice some of the things that bother me in the day to day news feeds. I will however try and keep them separate from the personal writings. without further ado...

Why is it that we have been so conditioned to forget that Tibet was once a sovereign nation? That it has a government widely recognized to be in exile? Today's daily reports as far as I could tell accepted and often stated that China is trying to play nice and win over the Olympic committee to bring the games to china, and "used necessary force to quell the violent protests."
It parallels other conflicts of displaced and oppressed regional peoples e.g., kashmir, palestine, taiwan, darfur, cuba... these conflicts are not cut and dry, I'm not so naive as to think that one side would or could be absolutely right. My question is, what do you do when your back is to the wall and legitimate, peaceful avenues of resolution are falsely offered or denied? To quote the hero in V for Vendetta, "Violence can be used for good." <--- Is that true, again not cut and dry. Some people can only be pushed so far and then they feel trapped and push back, as we often see usually to their own demise. Using violence in my opinion forfeits the moral high ground, but I can't help but sympathize. Ill leave any further ranting aside at the risk of diluting the whole passage. It does however remind of a poem I wrote more about dealing with personal weaknesses and relationships, but that's where it all begins I suppose.

Where did we lose it?
Where has it gone?
The love for each other,
the acceptance of wrong.

I'm not your judge,
and you are not mine.
You've never been weak?
Not once unkind?

We need not be brothers,
or friends of any kind.
To know that I am you,
and all that's yours is mine.

I speak not of things
in the physical realm.
Rather those which lie
in our hearts, in our minds.

I leave you only
that which I know.
Brother, sister, stranger, friend
take my hand for now and all time.

~PullTab

so sad...

I've been steadily increasing my biking time and introducing more of a workout routine afterwards. I certainly have better stamina since I've begun. I'm thinking about cutting alcohol completely out of my diet and perhaps starting to practice some martial arts. That would have to wait for Anchorage in May so that I might receive proper instruction. We shall have to see, I certainly enjoy those adult beverages. I have been keeping the Italian going, but again it would be nice to have some proper instruction. So I joined a group in Anchorage which meets to speak, discuss, and celebrate all things Italian. I am embracing this chance to reinvent myself and am finding more things out about myself than I have in quite some time.

Palermo have suffered another defeat. The season is winding down and a chance at qualification for the UEFA Cup is all but lost. Hopefully they can finish in the top half of the table, but even that isn't a sure thing.

Celebrate, we've passed the dreaded "Ides of March"

~PullTab