We just had to leave all that behind....

The AK summer is teasing taunting and convincing me more each day that it will be hard to leave this place. I find my newest plans shakin out like so...leave AK for the South of France sometime between July or August, Return to NY for a wedding in September, then return to AK for the New Year and the beginning of my next venture....Pro SKIER!!! No more games. Big Mountains, big thrills, no money, no worries...in short Live the Life you Seek.

My kin arrives here in the north on the morrow. Im pretty psyched we are gonna party down like its 1999.

Glory to the Rosanero they finished in 6th place within the Serie A Table.

Picture update soon....

~PullTab

Fearless...

It is the eve of my love's departure and once again I find myself gripped with the paradoxical feelings of Joy and Despair....
Joy because we have met and we have spent time together....Despair because now we must part

C'est la vie

~PullTab

...no this cant happen to me...

it is that way. I am in a state of such anticipation I think it is almost comical. I find myself with the realization that some deep breathing and observation of my heartbeat is the only meditation. Sleep is now fleeting and I stare outside the window and watch the snow fall. As it settles I await the arrival and subsequent end of summer. I need time to march on. Why is it that now that i have a desire for a few months to gloss over each day has seemed longer than the one before? mai mai mai i dont know if i can stand it



Its my yearly anniversary of evaluation and I actually feel good this year. Hopeful, interest in the future. Pleased with doing what i want for the reasons that i want to. even if i do complain once in awhile...my reality is always quite pleasant. All i can do is find someway to try and pass the next day as quickly as i can.

~PullTab

Candy Says

....I dig the quiet places ... All is in order and Juliet is set to arrive in the next 72 hours. Anxious would be a vast understatement. For better or worse I can think of nothing else for the time being. Trying to embrace the now and keep myself from being disappointed by anticipating the outcome of upcoming situations. When you know someone better than anyone and yet you dont know them...this is my conundrum.

Oh yeah I started a band with an Irishman....

The Rosanero hold the middle of the Serie A table. A disappointing derby result against Catania 4-0.

~PullTab

...and she was

As if christmas were early this year I shall receive the undeserved gift of my sweet Juliet's presence in only 10 days time. It is hard to grasp. How will the reality of this whole situation pan out?? Will our reunion be eclipsed by our eventual parting and consequent despair at the distance between us?? I wish i could effortlessly say "sure, everything will be fine." But this has been one of the longest, most difficult (at the same time wonderful) 30 days in my adult memory. My other dilemma is how do I entertain my sweet once she arrives. How does one avoid building up a false image when you desire approval from someone that is important to you?? Honesty is a fickle beast....

~PullTab

be here....

Fate is indeed a cruel mistress... I am racked with jubilation and despair. My sweet Juliet is so far from me and I am helpless. I could and would happily sacrifice any and all commitments here in AK if she would approve, but somehow I know she would not allow it. How is it that one can receive human emotion over a digital medium?? Is it just as real this way?

i will publish these thoughts unfinished, as a few days have passed

~PullTab

Master of Lethargy

I dont think its worth false promises that this blog will be maintained...let results speak for themselves. I have indeed visited the Land Of Siam and now everything is different. I left the states with the timeless task of "Finding Myself" by being by myself. While the majority of the journey indeed found me traveling alone in the end something far better came along.... I found someone else, rather we found one another ( i never know how to write this {one and other} or [one another]).

I shall change names to protect the innocent but I have found my Juliet...Indeed I find myself uttering her name aloud, smiling absently, and daydreaming endlessly of what how and when our future will begin and subsequently be. We met on my final night of my Thai holiday. We are separated by half a world regardless of our travel methods. With her residing in Switzerland and myself in the far north of Alaska. To compound my discontent I find myself bound by contract to remain employed here in the land of the midnight sun until the second week of August. Yet Juliet is indeed my sun and desires nothing more than to be by my side, even if that means she would have to live here in AK.

I need not extol the beauty of either her soul or her body....She is heavenly and more. I think of her each and every minute of every day

The Rosanero are ranked sixth in the Serie A Table....Lets hope they can hold out and carry through until the end of the season while remaining in the Top 10.

~PullTab