...and she was

As if christmas were early this year I shall receive the undeserved gift of my sweet Juliet's presence in only 10 days time. It is hard to grasp. How will the reality of this whole situation pan out?? Will our reunion be eclipsed by our eventual parting and consequent despair at the distance between us?? I wish i could effortlessly say "sure, everything will be fine." But this has been one of the longest, most difficult (at the same time wonderful) 30 days in my adult memory. My other dilemma is how do I entertain my sweet once she arrives. How does one avoid building up a false image when you desire approval from someone that is important to you?? Honesty is a fickle beast....

~PullTab

be here....

Fate is indeed a cruel mistress... I am racked with jubilation and despair. My sweet Juliet is so far from me and I am helpless. I could and would happily sacrifice any and all commitments here in AK if she would approve, but somehow I know she would not allow it. How is it that one can receive human emotion over a digital medium?? Is it just as real this way?

i will publish these thoughts unfinished, as a few days have passed

~PullTab